Sometimes I'm positive, upbeat, and optimistic.
And sometimes there's nothing to say but this stinks.
Sometimes I remind myself that we were chosen by God to be Abby's parents.
And sometimes I ask why?
Sometimes I just take it one day at a time.
And sometimes I crumble at the thought of everything ahead of us.
Sometimes I am so thankful for nurses that allow us to sleep and get a few things done.
And sometimes I just want to push them all out the door and regain my privacy.
Sometimes I realize that I really do know how to meet Abby's medical needs.
And sometimes I feel so inadequate and incompetent.
Sometimes I share how Abby is beating the odds.
And sometimes I wonder what beating the odds really means.
Sometimes this blog is meant to encourage others.
And sometimes I just need to be real and let you know how I'm really feeling.
This weekend has been pretty rough. Maggie's story has hit me hard and I've been reminded of the reality of our situation. Hopefully no one will be offended by this Debbie Downer post. I have always tried to be transparent in my writing and think that one of the best ways to reach and encourage people is by being real. I'm usually optomistic, but today isn't one of those days. And that's okay, because God meets me where I am and holds me on the rough days. I need to allow myself to share all of my emotions, not just the positive ones. Thanks for praying.