Friday, February 10, 2012

What They Didn't Say

Those first few terrifying weeks of Abby's life, the doctors told us an awful lot of information.  They told us that Abby's chances of getting out of the NICU were very slim.  They gave us lots of statistics that showed us the odds were stacked against her.

They pointed out every little physical imperfection on her body, from her ears, to the bridge of her nose, to her fingers.  They discussed life expectancy, pediatric hospice, and DNR orders. 

They told us that she would never sit up, much less walk, but offered assistive technology to make our day-to-day easier. 

They were quick to set our expectations straight by informing us that she wouldn't be much more than a vegetable, if she lived.

But there was a whole lot the doctors didn't say.

They didn't say that Abby is so much more than a statistic. 

They didn't describe the look of adoration that would glisten in Abby's eyes as she signed "I love you." 




They forgot to mention that she would, in fact, sit up...and crawl...and walk.  They never said that she would do all of this in her own time because she's just that stubborn! 

They never once mentioned that the stubborn streak that she inherited from her momma has made her quite a fighter.  

Nobody ever really told us how difficult home nursing could be--or how wonderful it would be once we got a team of nurses who genuinely love and care for Abby (and our family!)  I don't remember anyone telling us that the therapists who would work with Abby would become friends whom we would trust and whom would be some of Abby's biggest cheerleaders.  

They didn't say how she'd follow her brother around the house, tormenting him, or how fiercely he would love her.


  They never said that we'd have such a supportive group of people following our little blog and celebrating Abby's every accomplishment.  They didn't know that there would be times when the comments people left on the blog got me through a particularly emotionally draining day.
 
 They didn't tell us that Abby's smile would light up a room, or that she could control the world with the simple "more" sign. 
 
They didn't say that her beautiful, thick brown hair would curl in sweet little ringlets in the back. 
 
They didn't tell us how our journey would expand our vocabularies until we both feel like we've been through a few years of medical school. They didn't say that words like decannulation, gastrostomy, and kyphosis would be every day terms.  They didn't do much to assure us that there really is life after a trach and a vent, and that we really would become pros at all of the medical equipment.





 
They didn't realize she'd love to go through the cabinets and make a mess faster than I could clean up after her. 
 

They didn't tell us how fast I would cry when singing You Are My Sunshine.


They just didn't know how much she would change our lives, or how she'd bring us closer to each other and God. They didn't know that our God is a God of miracles, and that He would be performing quite a few in Abby's little life.

They didn't know Abby.

10 comments:

Darryl said...

Very moving! Our God is Greater! Love you all.

brooke shockley said...

wow just reading that reminds me that even though my everyday life is a battle just like yours if abby can do it i can!, she is so amazing and all i can say is never give up and by all the stuff i just read shows that you havent and i admire you for that!, god is great!, i will continue to pray for you! love you!(:

Becca said...

thanks, Julie (and Abby). That's just what I needed to read to brighten my day. :-)

Anonymous said...

So much happens in our lives to remind us that it's not the statistics, it's the will. Both the will of the individuals involved and God's will. You are so blessed:)
Kim

Anonymous said...

Oh, ever heard the song God's Will by Martina McBride? I've got it stuck in my head since I left that last post.
Have a great day!

dave said...

don't read often but decided to click on a link today. thanks for sharing your faith journey through your children to remind everyone of God's character and purposes that go beyond sight. amazing. beautiful.

Team Carter Jay said...

Awesome, AWESOME post!! I just stumbled upon your blog, and would like to invite you to share Abby's story on Carter's Hope. It's a support website I started in memory of my son. The point of the site is to share stories exactly like yours to offer support to new parents who are just finding themselves in the world of special needs. We have just started out, but hope to grow in offering support in other ways. If you are interested, we would be HONORED to share her story. The website is www.cartershope.com . I will definitely be following your blog as I love your positive attitude. Thank you for being an inspiration to others.

Silvy said...

loved this post... i just found your blog through reagan's blog.. your daughter is just beautiful!! ps i cry too when i sing you are my sunshine..

Robin said...

Beautiful post!! Abby is an inspiration! God bless!

Jane Benitz said...

They didn't know OUR GOD!!!