Saturday, July 24, 2010

against a planner's nature

So much of the next 4 months is against my nature as a planner.  I like to know exactly what I'm doing and how to deal with it.  Well, this is very much a wait and see situation.  Needless to say, I don't like it!

This might be funny to you considering my general personality, but the one thing that I really don't like to plan is when I would go into labor.  I am an advocate for natural childbirth whenever possible and don't really mind the idea that I could go into labor at the grocery store.  So it makes me kind of sad to know that I won't have that experience again this time.  Instead, I'll wake up one morning in November, drive 1 1/2 hours to UMD-B, get an IV started, get hooked up to a bunch of machines, and either have a C-section or start a Pectosin drip.  It's not quite as fun and exciting as when I contracted irregularly all morning with Caleb, called Matt to come home, waited until my contractions were 4-5 minutes apart, waited even longer because I was worried that I would be sent home for false labor, drover 15 minutes to CMH, and was stoked to find out that I was 7 cm dialated already! 

But, such is life.  I'm glad I know now because it gives the planner in me lots of time to process and deal.

Yes, I know that it sounds totally backwards for me not to want to know the exact birth date of Abigail.  I'm weird.  I know.  :)

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